Friday, October 10, 2008

I'm not Ready!

So Kameron is all grown up! I realize this is not a surprise to everyone else but for me it has been a very difficult thing to admit. Last weekend she took her first solo driving trip. She drove to Show Low for her Best Friend's Birthday. She planned...packed...drove...and called. She was very responsible (this did not surprise me ~ she was born with responsibility). Still it was a little bit sad for me because it was another moment for me to realize that she is old enough to do that. Here are a few things I knew but did not readily admit
1. In less than a year she will be making her own decisions ~ on her own ~ by herself...
2. 18 years really is not enough time (I do know that it does not end at 18 ~ but it will be the biggest change we have had yet)
3. She will be just fine!!

I am not ready to let go ~ But I am beginning to realize it is around the corner.

2 comments:

Jesse & Karen Nevin said...

In a research paper that I did when I was taking counseling classes, the premise was that the most important role of a parent is to help their offspring grow confident enough to be willing and able to leave the nest and become a contributing members of society by the time that they are chronological adults. Both you and Kameron have done well in this regard! But why does doing a good job mean that they are willing and usually anxious to leave us? Seems to be somehow backwards. Boy what a bitter sweet time in life for both parents and their offspring! The first is always the hardest.

Janee Graham said...

Grrrrrr!! I'm feeling the same way. I have another year to go but I feel the cord getting thinner each day. Thinking back to days of all my children being young , I thought this was so very far away. How wrong I was the older they get the faster it goes. I'm not ready either! And Cam is and always has been Miss Responsibility. Great job to you mom.